And then one day…
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THE DETAILS:
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THE PROMPT:
This week’s photo prompt courtesy of, and copyright by, Sandra Crook. Thank you, Sandra! (I love the colors in that picture and how it’s framed)
THE STORY:
(This story is true. This story is not about me. The thought came to me after seeing the picture because I’ve recently been thinking about a friend who took his life back in August of last year. I have no real idea why I’d be missing him more lately other than maybe something as simple as the beginning of another baseball season. My friend didn’t jump from a bridge, but that doesn’t matter. I miss him and I pray that wherever he is now, he found what he felt he needed and that he’s at peace.)
(It was better with you.)
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And then one day…
No one knows. For days, weeks, maybe months (maybe years?) the voice whispered to him.
Jump. Do it.
And at some point, during those many hours (maybe so slowly he never realized?), his will to fight weakened and he began to wonder if maybe the voice wasn’t right. (If maybe the voice wasn’t the truth?)
Out for a walk and he’d wonder:
Why not? Maybe one day.
Riding his bike:
Why not? Maybe one day.
At night, unable to sleep:
Why not? Maybe one day.
Until one day:
Why not today?
And that day he left the wondering to us.
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I, and others I talked to, never got the chance to say, “I’m here”, or “How can I help?”, so It wouldn’t feel right to leave this story without sharing this. Just in case. 988 Suicide & Crisis Hotline
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💔 They are often so good at wearing the mask, and we are too involved elsewhere to notice the thin elastic holding the thing in place.
I’m sorry, Michael.
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Yeah, you’re right. Thanks Liz.
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I can so identify with this, having lost a dear writing colleague late last year. We whatsapped and emailed regularly up until his death. Such superb vehicles for masking what was really going on. You very poignantly replay the emotions that I felt (and continue to feel).
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You never know, do you
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No, you really never do.
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I am so sorry for your loss, Michael. We don’t always see the struggle as they are pretty good at hiding it.
It’s weird how at various times we can feel the loss more than others. I know too well.
Beautifully written.
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Thanks Dale.
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🤗
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This is a sad story and even sadder to know that it is a true story. I am so sorry, Michael.
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Thanks Lois.
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Heartfelt and powerful. Well done.
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Thanks Iain.
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Sad yet powerful story!
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Thank you Dolly. (It would be nice if life never had to be sad)
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How sad. I hope you find some solice.
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Thank you!
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So sad. Life can be tough for the victims and the ones left behind. There is a mental torture of “what if” or “what did I miss”. Grief can hit when we least expect it.
Powerful and well written story, M.
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Thanks Tannille! (And here’s to a world without any mental torture)
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Michael, last August is not so long ago. My condolences on the passing of someone close to you. You do a good job here of guessing on what might have been going through his mind before he made that choice.
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Thanks Lisa!
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You’re welcome.
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I am so very sorry for your loss, Michael. You portrayed excellently the voice that whispers when life gets too difficult. Thank you for sharing this story, for your friend’s sake and for others who might hear that voice. There is help!
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Such a tragic situation. I’m sorry to learn about the loss of your friend. Your story is very moving and I think it shows the turmoil he might have been feeling.
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So sad, it was clearly just a matter of time. If only you’d known.
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I’m sorry for the loss of your friend. One never really knows the turmoil or true happiness inside another. It’s often hard to ask for help. He must have been a wonderful person if his being gone still affects you.
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Dear Michael,
How tragic. And, I might add, well written. So sorry for your loss.
Shalom,
Rochelle
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This is so sad it makes me fight tears. Which also shows how well written it is. I’m so sorry for your loss, the ones who are left behind can always only guess.
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so sad to hear about your loss. may he rest in peace.
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We humans can so fail, suicide is sad. I was sorry to read of his pain
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Poignant.
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This is a powerful depiction and reminder of the invisible attacks that can nibble away at our souls. I’m so sorry for your loss.
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